One instance was back in 5th grade during a Christmas party thing. Everyone received a gift from someone else (the whole 'Secret Santa' shindig) and we all received a generic gift from the teacher. Our teacher gave us these cool little flashlight looking things (they had fiber-optic strings on the end of them and a light on the other). The gift i was given was a handheld racing game. Pretty fun, i have say. Anyway, i instantly began playing it and got in the zone (that gamer 'tunnel vision') and it just so happened that one of my classmates asked if they could see my gift. So, without hesitation, i handed her the light up gift. She had clearly stated she would like to look at the racing game, but in my distracted state, i assumed otherwise. It resulted in a few seconds of silence as i began to figure things out. Still kinda cringe when i think about it.
Another instance was during a class in middle school (must have been Literature or something) and the teacher was out of the room. i overhead a couple classmates complaining about a person, telling about a certain situation they were in. Well....i only heard a very small fraction of the story, and i immediately thought of a completely different situation about a completely different person, and wildly interrupting the two, i let them have it. i (in that half second moment) was completely proud of my ability to defend this person and their character, only to find out that i had made an idiot of myself. That one hits the Cringe-O-meter pretty hard.
Oyyy...this next one just proves how silly and....well, strange i can be. It happened to be senior year at prom. The music was set, people were thinking about dancing, but mainly just chatting. The main event and pictures had already taken place, so it was in the 'social slumber' stage where people were kinda lingering around waiting for something to happen. So a few two-stepping songs start to play and people dance again. Fun fun. Then a song that would work well for someone who knows how to break dance began playing (actually, it may have just been a regular song, and i assumed wrong, making myself to be even more of a silly idiot) and i thought, "Hey, this would be the perfect time to step up to the spot light and.....stand on my hands." Haha. i am very thankful at the politeness (or extremely quiet criticisms) which resulted from my 'performance.' And to make matters worse, i did it again. Yes, i am crazy.
Ok, that's all i can bear to reveal about my silly self and embarrassing mistakes of my past at this time.
But i do have a point in all of this. i learned something valuable (in my opinion) from many, many, many instances such as these.....i'm alive and capable of these things. Yes, i do make extremely silly decisions from time to time, but i don't make the same one over and over. i have learned from them.
So, if any of you who happen to read this can mildly relate...then relax. The vast majority of us do things that make us cringe at that moment and when we think back on it. It's life. Just focus on what's ahead, put the past behind you, and move on.
Learn from your past. Don't dwell on it.
